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*****  NOTE **** I changed the view of my blog so that my latest post will be on the TOP.  I trust this will assist in your viewing.  Thanks for following along with my progress. ~Nadine

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Wed June 16th~ ME as… Unstoppable…  Unshakable….  Warrior… ME

Foundation Words:   NOW+ PROSPEROUS+ INTERESTED

NOTES : gotta love it when you enter data and it all disappears.  hmmmm.. so what ever I wrote before must have been just for me.  Body had lots of shifts this morning.  yahoo.. the Omega=3 are kicking IN.. yahooo… cardio 1 is complete.. yahooo.. one my way to the gym now for LEGS..  Very interested to see how my hamstring behaves.  This latest little pull has held me back from pushing the sprints on my cardio.. I am able to run but at a much slower pace.

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Sun June 13th~ ME as… Unstoppable…  Unshakable….  Warrior… ME

Foundation Words:   CURIOUS+ WELL-BEING+ OBSERVANT

NOTES : what a wonderful gift to get to sleep in a tad this morning.  It was raining.. so the cats even allowed me to rest a bit more.  My hamstring is still bothering me.. so had to do a ‘different cardio this morning.  I am really trusting the remainder of the day to rest will allow this to completely heal so I can RUN again monday.  Took pics today… glutes are definitely leaner than they have ever been…  we are 8 weeks out .. I mailed in my entry form.. so no turning back.. now to get my airline tickets adn hotel…  I also have started posing, and have blocked of time daily for this addition to the regime.  Time for bed…

Day End:  COMPLIANT

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Sat  June 12th~ ME as… Unstoppable…  Unshakable….  Warrior… ME

Foundation Words:   FLOWING+ FLEXIBLE+ FUN

NOTES : Today will end my first full week with FST…  I have Chest and Triceps this morning.  So am looking forward to burning both of those muscle groups.  My left hamstring is still causing me issue.. I thought the rest last night would be enough.. but was still unable to run on it this morning.  I am now headed to a stair master to see what I can create for my last cardio of the day.

It is colder here today.. temps dropped with the rain.  I actually just had to close all the windows.. BUUURRRRRR  So, to create some Balance in my life.. and explore some FUN.. I am participating in a Gaming/Board games night with a group of Fort Collins Singles…  This will be my first ‘outing’…  my goals are to be Present and simply have FUN.  On other news, I was able to complete two Iris Evaluations today.  I have two more to complete, then write an essay and I will be DONE with this certification.  man this one has taken me a long time… omg..  ok.. time to do cardio…

Day End:  awesome day.. I am looking forward to sleeping IN tomorrow

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Thurs  June 9th~ ME as… Unstoppable…  Unshakable….  Warrior… ME

Foundation Words:   BALANCE+ NEUTRAL+ RECEPTIVE

NOTES : Up early with the birdies….  cardio one complete as is my abdominal workout..  feels good to have this accomplished.  Need to work on goals and emotional balance.

Day End:  . pulled my hammie.. all else is good..

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Wed  June 8th~ ME as… Unstoppable…  Unshakable….  Warrior… ME

Foundation Words:   NEUTRAL+ OBSERVANT+ ALIGNED

NOTES : AM cardio was rough.. left leg is still strange..  I put on some Tiger Balm.. and had to slow my pace down.. however.. I made it through my cardio.  The new regime is showing on my physique.. I am looking ‘tighter’ through the abdominal.  Lat to Ab ratio is cutting in.  Legs are looking ‘tighter’.   the FST=7 is KICKIN MY BUTT.. holy smokies…

I did FST with leg Extensions today…  WOW  WOW  WOW   WOW   can we say, leg mush????  Am off to run the Stadium stairs.. think i’ll go get a shot of wheat grass for energy.  THAT WAS BRUTAL.. it was hotter than HADES.. no air on.. omg…..  think I sweated off another 30 pounds… glad that is complete….  heading to lala land pretty quickly… that wiped me out

Day End:  . made it to the end of the day Compliant.… bumped up against my nuts desire.. Kept the coach alive

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Tues  June 8th~ ME as… Unstoppable…  Unshakable….  Warrior… ME

Foundation Words:    NEUTRAL+ OBSERVANT+ FOCUSED

NOTES : Am doing better with my new cardio regime.. it is tough at the end of the day.  I am finding that I truly have to do it in 10 min chunks in my brain.  I am also finding that listening to meditation tracks in the morning cardio HELPS me set up my entire day.  Still finding that I Want/Need the extra eggs daily.  Will look into whether it is WANT or NEED.. last night it felt like NEED.  Going for another Compliant day.  Food is CLEAN.. I have not had a nut in a while.. and have not wanted them.. so that is GOOD..

Have to say.. I bumped up against a NASTY WALL tonight.  Legs felt like MUSH…  GAS factor was at an all time low..  Reached out to my support system.  It is huge for me to admit I am ‘weak’.  It is huge for me to say I need help.  But the totally KEWL part… is HELP WAS THERE… My support system gave me just what I needed so that I could go another step.  I took my cardio one 10 min section, and one spike at a time…  I was exhausted.. but thrilled when it was COMPLETE…  THANK YOU SUPPORT TEAM

Day End:  .  COMPLIANT and CLEAN day.. I MADE IT THROUGH all my cardio… holy hell.

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Fri  June 4th~ ME as… Unstoppable…  Unshakable….  Warrior… ME

Foundation Words:    DRIVE+ ORGANIZED+ HAPPY

NOTES : goal today is to get IN all my cardio… eat another Clean and Compliant day.

Day End:  clean and compliant

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Thurs June 3rd~ ME as… Unstoppable…  Unshakable….  Warrior… ME

Foundation Words:    CLARITY+ PURPOSEFUL+ HAPPY

NOTES : Woke up feeling ‘blocked’.  have not passed my bowels in a few days and that is uncomfortable.  I also stepped on the scale again.  That was NOT a good mental thing to do this morning.  This is difficult for me… I WANT to see the shift down.. so when it goes UP I get pissed off.  Heading to Moby Gym now to run the stairs.  Need something different and that should do it.

On another note, I have done a search for Local activities for Single peeps… started a profile dealio, and requested information about a few events.  I have even said I’ll attend a volleyball deal this weekend.  very much OUT of my comfort zone.. but willing to take the step.

Staying ALERT and OBSERVANT for When I have destructive thoughts…. or the desire for extra food/food off my plan…  When I have the thought.. I am acknowledging it is THERE….  then VISUALIZING it being the FUEL chips in my FAT BURNING FURNACE….  Allowing those Thoughts to then Heat UP my Shedding process.  Thus I am now getting excited for all the times I FIND the thoughts… more thoughts means more fuel.  I am exactly where I am supposed to be….  My body is doing exactly what it is supposed to be doing 10 weeks out from a show..  I am on Track.  I am on Target…  I am IN PROCESS

Day End:  clean day… did not get in 2nd cardio.. was exhausted.  went to be early. gotta get this tighter

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Wed June 2nd~ ME as… Unstoppable…  Unshakable….  Warrior… ME

Foundation Words:    STILLNESS+ CLARITY+ ATTENTIVE

NOTES : In my morning meditation these three words came up…  Being STILL within… and in that Stillness I can then find CLARITY so that I can make a good choice.  Once I have that Clarity to then be ATTENTIVE to my process .  I had another thought….  When the Nut Gremlins arrive on that thought pattern…  Can I be Alert and Attentive to USE those thoughts as FUEL to BURN FAT….  Literally grab those bad boyz and stick em in the FAT BURNING Furnace….  I am Allowing the layers of insulation to simply melt off my glutes and hips…  MELTING in the HEAT… MELTING in the FURNACE….  YES…. YES… YES… YES… YES….

Day End:   was Clean and COMPLIANT.. though still using the additional omelet.  I feel I need to eliminate that so I can begin shedding fat again.

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Tues June 1st~ Unstoppable.. Unshakable….  Warrior… ME

Foundation Words:    RECEPTIVE+ UNDERSTANDING+ ALLOWING

NOTES : I OPEN all of me to explore this dance  of emotions I seem to be experiencing.  I will not shrink back from my growth.  I will embrace all of this…   I Allow myself to Receive my Good.  I will cause myself no more pain.

Day End:  ended my day COMPLIANT and CLEAN… with all workouts and all cardio complete.

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Mon May  31st~Rising UP like the PHOENIX WARRIOR I  AM

Foundation Words:    FOCUS+ PRECISION+ ALLOWING

NOTES : a friend sent me a text this morning to be Disciplined with Direction.. very kewl…I will take that Direction and add in Precision and Focus so that when I am doing my Leg workout today I am IN THE MUSCLE…  Allowing the muscle to Grow, Expand, Stretch…  allowing my body to shed the fat that is layering the muscle.  It is MY Time.. my time to allow all that I am to come forth… My time to Shine… My time to be Visible.  .. Time to allow all this hard earned muscle to be seen….

Day End:  clean day but missed 2nd cardio

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Sun May  30th~Rising UP  like the PHOENIX WARRIOR I  AM

Foundation Words:    ALLOWING+ BELIEVE+ SERENITY

NOTES :
This morning I received the following inspirational note;

The first step toward change is acceptance. Once you accept yourself, you open the door to change. That’s all you have to do. Change is not something you do, it’s something you allow. - Will Garcia

HOLY HELL… OK.. I am GETTING IT….  I have RESISTED things for tooooo long.  I am going to change my Energy so that I can ALLOW my Shifts to occur.  I have been sitting at  157.8 for some time now.  I will ALLOW my body to achieve 148.  I will Allow my Mind to hold the thoughts needed to Believe and Achieve.

Got my flowers purchased, planted and watered.  I am excited to watch their growth as I continue to grow myself.  In fact, I am going back today to get some little dudes to put between the rocks… AND am going to create two more hanging baskets.. WOW.. Go Nadir…

Today I ALLOW myself to have a Compliant eating day…

Day End: Clean day from nuts…  missed my last meal.. totally fell asleep.. so can’t claim a complaint day as of yet.  very very close.

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Sat May  29th~Rising up like the PHOENIX WARRIOR I  AM

Foundation Words:    POSSIBILITY + BELIEVE+ COURAGE

NOTES : I have written many times about food being my issue when I am dealing with Life and Emotional issues.  These past few months, I have truly embraced the Possibility of HAVING a Delicious Romantic Relationship/Partnership.  I have taken risks, well to ME they are risks. I have allowed myself to Open my Heart.  Which then leads to experiencing Vulnerability, Hurt, Pain, New Emotions.  And through it ALL I see the pattern of ‘numbing out’.

In my past life, when I was very heavy, my numbing out foods were Ice-cream, Chinese food and Pizza.  It could be embarrassing to admit exactly HOW much food I used to consume.  I just never seemed to know when to hit the ’shut off’ switch.  Well hell, this is MY blog, what do I have to lose?  When I was in the center of my addiction I could and would consume 6 pints of ice-cream a day.  When ordering pizza, I would order 2 large plus those cheesy pizza sticks.  When ordering Chinese food, hell, I’d place an order that should have been for a family, for a week…  But in the middle of my PAIN.. I would EAT IT ALL.. just me….  I’d bury my emotions in food.

Can’t say I’m proud of the fact that I still turn to food to numb out… or make myself feel ‘better’.  Cause trust me… after eating my nuts or nut butter, I usually do not feel BETTER.  I will say the food has shifted to NUTS.  I am now able to manage the quantity of nuts.  However, I still see the pattern of turning TO the damn things when I am feeling ‘less than’ or in ‘emotional pain’.

this past week, as life has knocked up against me… I SEE my old thoughts.  I SEE my old patterns.  and I have acted ON those thoughts and patterns a few times.  However I have also yanked the collar back.  My workouts are back on track.  My cardio is back on track.  The nuts are DONE.  I still ate extra quantities of chicken and eggs yesterday.. However I feel like I am truly on the mend. yahoo…

where do I go now????   UP   UP  UP  UP UP UP UP…..  Today I have chosen to NURTURE myself with flowers.  I purchased quite a few flowers to put along the garage.  and in a hanging basket.  I am also gifting myself a Nurturing massage with a salt scrub to shed some dead skin… detox baby..  I am putting ME FIRST.

Day End:  NOT quite dialed IN…. closer.. closer… will NAIL it.

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Thurs April  29th~Rising up like the PHOENIX WARRIOR I  AM

Foundation Words:    BEAUTY + FASCINATION+ POSSIBILITIES

NOTES : I have completely tuned IN…. turned IN… allowing only the thoughts within to rule…  I have blinders on to the nay-sayers… to the giver-uppers… to those who choose the easy path.. the path that requires no change… no shift.. no growth.  I reach deep within… to my STRENGTH….  I AM rising up out of teh ashes…  I am RISING up into my Greatness… into my Magnificence…  Each bite I take fuels my fat loss… Each Step I take allows me to be TIGHTER… LEANER…  SOLID….  This is MY TIME…..  I am CAPABLE and WORTHY of this task before me…

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Wed April  28th~Rising up like the PHOENIX WARRIOR I  AM

Foundation Words:    CAPABLE + WELL-NESS + POSSIBILITIES

NOTES : GOSH it has been AGES since I wrote in my blog.  so sorry…  I will attempt to do better at this.  My weight has been riding 160.0 for close to 3 weeks now.  My body FEELS lighter… however the scale is yet to figure out I have dropped inches.  I am looking tighter, leaner and thicker.. so that is awesome.  Still unsure as to when i’ll step on stage.. but it will be this summer…  one state or another… yahoo…

Day End:  have had ONE… repeat ONE non-compliant day in April.. that is HUGE for me..

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Thurs  January 28th~Allowing for Greatness

Foundation Words:    BEAUTY + Unlimited POTENTIAL+ FOCUS

NOTES : Very excited that I have been compliant this long.  Way kewl.. Taking GUM out of my daily routine has really assisted me in letting go of my ‘oral fixation’.  I used to chew 6-8 sticks of SF gum during the day.. then anywhere from 6-14 at night.  THEN I’d want more chew, more crunchy.. and i’d go off my food plan.  NOW I am COMPLIANT…  I am rockin it..  Got feedback that I am looking, BIGGER; with Thicker muscle bellies….  Leaner through the abdominal wall.. (very kewl).  I have also been pulled OFF the scale since it does a number on my head.  I don’t need that.  No one comes up and says.. Heh Nadine.. How much you weight today????  All I really care about is that I am presenting my BEST Nadine each day.  What is possible for ME today…  IS THIS MY BEST… if not… What more can I do????  How much more can I lift?   how much more can I give on my cardio…..  I am very PLEASED WITH MYSELF and what I am CREATING.

Day End:  COMPLIANT DAY

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Tues  January 19th~Allowing for Greatness

Foundation Words:    BEAUTY + Unlimited POTENTIAL+ LUSCIOUS

NOTES : I am feeling powerful and centered.  My inner confidence is building.  I created a vision Board with all the things it takes to create my dream.  will see if I can insert a pic of it in here.  I also participated in a photo shoot opportunity. Will see if I get selected.  The project is looking for women all over the world who are athletic and natural.. not too buff (which I am not right now) and not too skinny (which I most definitely am not right now).. lol.. anyways.. the pics have been taken.. the video shot and submitted.. so now the wait to see if I am selected.  If I am.. it is a road trip to FLORID.. warmer weather.. hoohoo

let me see if I can insert a pic of my Vision Board…   hmmm it SAYS it uploaded it.. but I don’t SEE IT… hmmmmmmmm  use your imagination….

Day End:  COMPLIANT DAY

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Sun  January 10th~Allowing for Greatness

Foundation Words:    GRACE + Unlimited POTENTIAL+ RECEPTIVE

NOTES : Well I have not posted in a few days… well like a week…  reason???  I hit some emotions and feelings I did not know I was capable of.  And in the mix of all of that I sort of lost my footing emotionally.  I notice that when things are GOOD, I can come out here and write.  Yet when I am vulnerable… I don’t come out here.

Embracing ALL of me is necessary.  Who knows if any of this will help another.. but this is not about them. It is about ME>..    So bottom line…  I have been wanting/desiring/creating a DELICIOUS ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP.  At the start of December I met someone with whom I wanted to give more, participate with more… etc.  I took some RISKS.. jumped in with all I am…  offered up my heart… offered up me…..

At this juncture in the journey, I do not know where WE stand.  We met, we had a good time.  Then I felt him shut down.  So I backed off..  it was very difficult to do.  I am currenlty giving him all the space he needs to figure things out for him.  but damn it is difficult.  the good news.. is that when I got back home… I reached out to friends, and to my coach.  I did not want to eat over my emotional journey.  I am still compliant.

I took pics saturday.  They do show subtle shifts in the body.  NOW TO KEEP THE BALL ROLLING.  Goal is to remain Compliant to my program.  To remain compliant with my cardio…  so kick major booootay in the gym…  and see more results… more significant results and shifts in both the mirror and the scale.

MINE…. MINE…. MINE… MINE… MINE…MINE

Day End:  COMPLIANT DAY

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THURS  DEC 31ST ~ the SHIFT has BEGUN ~ Day 4….

Foundation Words:    COMPLETION + LimitLESS-ness+ OPEN TO THE NEW

NOTES : Up early to teach a class then my first cardio.  I get some carbs today.. hoohoo… re-fueling the body..  I HAVE big DREAMS….  Big GOALS.. they have already started… they ARE IN MOTION…   I am FOCUSED….  I am HERE…. I AM… I AM… I AM….

Day End: COMPLIANT

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wED  DEC 30th ~ the SHIFT has BEGUN ~ Day 3….

Foundation Words:    CHAMPION + LimitLESS-ness+ MASTERY

NOTES : Woke up rested and ready to take on my day.  A few more words hit this morning to wear for a while.  As a CHAMPION.. I must be OPEN to new Possibilities…. I have the ability to MASTER my food intake… to MASTER the evening hours….  to MASTER my chosen way of life.  And in that, ALLOWING all the wonderful things to unfold…

heading into the other room to take on my cardio session.  Am SOLID on my plan… am pushing my lifts… am giving it all on my cardio.. This is my time.. this is my moment.. this is my physique.. this is my health and well-being… this is my path…

Day End:  COMPLIANT DAY

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Tues  DEC 29th ~ the SHIFT has BEGUN ~ Day 2….

Foundation Words:    ALLOWING + LimitLESS-ness+ MASTERY

NOTES : I made it through my first day. Today is an early day.  so right now I am exhausted.  I had to be up at 5:15 and will not be complete until around 9 pm…  ouch. I also have LEGS today..  Might have to go lie down for a bit to recoup.  I am enjoying my food and looking forward to how it affects my lifts as well as my appearance in the mirror.  Setting my intention to have another ROCKIN day.

Day End:  COMPLIANT DAY

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MON  DEC 28th ~ the SHIFT has BEGUN ~ Day 1….

Foundation Words:    CURIOUS + LimitLESS-ness+ MASTERY

NOTES : Right now I feel ENERGIZED.. my first meal has me rockin and ready to take this ON… hoohoo..  Will post more later..  Learned that I MUST eat on time… I get hungry.. but doable…  excited.. I have rocked this day. Was able to go up in wieghts today for my shoulder workout…

Day End:  COMPLIANT day.. yahoo

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Sunday  DEC 27th

Foundation Words:    ALLOWING + LimitLESS-ness+ POSSIBILIES

NOTES : today was the LAST day of phase one… Tomorrow we begin the Cutting phase.. to bring my Physique IN, in the most incredible shape i’ve ever achieved.  My life depends on this.  I am ready.  I am willing.  Here we go..  To have FOCUSED MASTERY of my eating, training and posing…

Day End:

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Tuesday  DEC 22nd~

Foundation Words:    ALLOWING + LimitLESS-ness+ POSSIBILIES

NOTES : started my day strong with an am on empty cardio.  lots of healthy sweat.  Today is LEGS day.. so getting my head and heart around a powerful lift day.

Day End:

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Monday  DEC 21st~

Foundation Words:    DESIRE + LimitLESS-ness+ DELICIOUS

NOTES : switching back to cardio on Empty….  feels good to do that.  Pulling fruit from my program as I begin my decent into contest shape..   I am taking it on.. also made a decision to give up gum.. THAT IS DIFFICULT FOR ME…  however I am willing.. the chemicals in the gum are causing me to retain fluid…  so here we go..  a few weeks left in 2009,…  my eyes are on NOW and what I am Creating for my future.

Day End:  made it through the  day without gum.. so it IS possible..  dry mouth or not…  COMPLIANT day.. let the shedding BEGIN..

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THURS  DEC 17th~

Foundation Words:    DESIRE + LimitLESS-ness+ DELICIOUS

NOTES : BUSTED a move on ALL MY LIFTS yesterday.  Very pleased with myself.  have been COMPLIANT daily..

Day End: compliant day

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Tues  DEC 15th~

Foundation Words:    COURAGE + LimitLESS-ness+ COMMANDING

NOTES : Well I can tell when I have not been compliant with my food.  I stop writing.  Very interesting observation.  I crashed sunday night.  had lots of yogurt and apples.  Just couldn’t seem to find that cut off switch.  I am back on program now.  Back to visualizing where I am going.  This is such a process, such a journey.  I know I will reach my destination as long as I keep taking a step in the right direction.

Day End:  totally AWESOME DAY… Compliant too… hoohoo

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Thurs  DEC 10th~

Foundation Words:    COURAGE + LimitLESS-ness+ GRATEFUL

NOTES : So much has happened since my last journal entry.  I discoverd on Monday that my dad died.  Interesting.  I have been working on releasing any ties I have to eating COMPULSIVELY or OBSESSIVELY.. those two traits lead to feelings of ISOLATION.  As part of my process to unravel these concepts I was looking for the weakest link so that I could rip this structure apart.  When I heard he had died, I felt a ‘disconnect’.  It was the beginning of what I needed.  So much of my childhood was wrapped around food.  It was used to punish, control, manipulate, guilt, and once in a blue moon, to reward.  I recall stealing quarters, from people I babysat for, to buy ‘forbidden food’ out of vending machines.  Then eating the stuff like a ravenous dog.  I have used food so many times to numb out, to check out, to just NOT BE..     But all that changed when I took control of my life.  Now I really want to BE….  and that requires STANDING IN MY EXCELLENCE!!…

I have a DREAM… to see that Ultimate Warrior within me.  I have made many attempts then seemed to miss the mark.  NOW IS MY TIME….  NOW is the time I am reaching deep within.   Nothing gets left behind.  I am Ready…  I am Capable… I am Willing..  to be Victorious.

Day End:  compliant day

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Sun  DEC 6th~

Foundation Words:    WARRIOR + LimitLESS+ GRACEFUL

NOTES : Every step I take… takes me toward that Center spot.. where I, Nadine, grab that brass ring.  I claim my place amongst the CHAMPIONS who have gone before me.  I am Worthy of standing along side of them.  I feel STRONG and CENTERED and FOCUSED in on my Goal…

In Order to BE IT, You MUST first SEE IT! Your ATTITUDE must be that of someone who will ONLY see LIGHT even in utter Darkness. With My MIND I LIGHT my FUTURE on FIRE. My Body, My Goals and my Dreams are under MY control and it’s NOT the Other way Around. I’m Running This Thing. Bring the Darkness and I’ll Consume it…Harder, Tighter, Leaner!

Day End: 

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Sat  DEC 5th~

Foundation Words:    UNSTOPPABLE+ LimitLESS+ WARRIOR

NOTES : This is in MY CONTROL..   I AM DOING THIS!!!!   MINE!!!    MINE!!!!  MINE!!!!    MINE!!!!  I have been 100% compliant on my program since thanksgiving.  I know that with each step I take I  nail my Success.  Each time I focus on the physique and healthy body I am creating….  I make that link stronger.   Each time I visualize that ‘cheating’ or ‘eating off my program’ leads to the ‘old nadine’…  I release the need or want for compulsive eating that then becomes an obsession.    This IS in MY CONTROL….   MINE!!!    MINE!!!!  MINE!!!!    MINE!!!!

In Order to BE IT, You MUST first SEE IT! Your ATTITUDE must be that of someone who will ONLY see LIGHT even in utter Darkness. With My MIND I LIGHT my FUTURE on FIRE. My Body, My Goals and my Dreams are under MY control and it’s NOT the Other way Around. I’m Running This Thing. Bring the Darkness and I’ll Consume it…Harder, Tighter, Leaner!

Day End:  GREEN COMPLIANT DAY... yahoo.. I am on a roll

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Thurs  DEC 3rd~

Foundation Words:    COMPETENT+ LimitLESS+ DELICIOUS

NOTES : Trying to get out of my head.  I stepped on the scale this morning hoping to see 163… NOT.  this is pissing me off.  I am lifting heavier, doing more cardio… being 100% on my food intake… and it is not shifting on that piece of metal.  I will focus all my energy today to break through this barrier .  This is in MY CONTROL..   I AM DOING THIS!!!!   MINE!!!    MINE!!!!  MINE!!!!    MINE!!!!

In Order to BE IT, You MUST first SEE IT! Your ATTITUDE must be that of someone who will ONLY see LIGHT even in utter Darkness. With My MIND I LIGHT my FUTURE on FIRE. My Body, My Goals and my Dreams are under MY control and it’s NOT the Other way Around. I’m Running This Thing. Bring the Darkness and I’ll Consume it…Harder, Tighter, Leaner!

Day End:  GREEN DAY COMPLIANT….

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Wed  DEC 2nd~

Foundation Words:    BALANCE+ LimitLESS+ DELICIOUS

NOTES : Last night I really feel I crossed a LINE.  The old ‘i’m hungry’ chatter had begun.  I closed my eyes and visualized my ‘old’ body.. the one when I was 225#. I told myself, as I had been practicing for a week, that ANY kind of Cheating would lead me BACK TO THAT PLACE.  I could go there if I wanted to…  But there is another option.. I could also get a cup of HOT, and visualize the PLACE I AM GOING TOWARDS…

I am THRILLED to report that I MADE IT THROUGH….   I feel so GOOD this morning for my success.  I feel ALIVE and VIBRANT.. I know the fat is melting off my physique.  I am EMPOWERED..  yahooo..

In Order to BE IT, You MUST first SEE IT! Your ATTITUDE must be that of someone who will ONLY see LIGHT even in utter Darkness. With My MIND I LIGHT my FUTURE on FIRE. My Body, My Goals and my Dreams are under MY control and it’s NOT the Other way Around. I’m Running This Thing. Bring the Darkness and I’ll Consume it…Harder, Tighter, Leaner!

Day End:  GREEN COMPLIANT DAY

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Tues  DEC 1st~

Foundation Words:    MAJESTIC+ LimitLESS+ DILIGENT

NOTES : HARD to believe we are in December.  I swear yesterday was january.  This year has really flow by. I feel I have accomplished so much, yet have also not reached the goals I have set for myself.  It is a continual dream. TO BE MY ULTIMATE BEST.  So today I strap on my boots, Visualize my TIGHT LEAN HARD Physique and GO FOR IT.

In Order to BE IT, You MUST first SEE IT! Your ATTITUDE must be that of someone who will ONLY see LIGHT even in utter Darkness. With My MIND I LIGHT my FUTURE on FIRE. My Body, My Goals and my Dreams are under MY control and it’s NOT the Other way Around. I’m Running This Thing. Bring the Darkness and I’ll Consume it…Harder, Tighter, Leaner!

Day End:  GREEN Compliant Day

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Sun  Nov 29th~

Foundation Words:    MAJESTIC+ LimitLESS+ OPTIMISTIC

NOTES : Felt great to wake up a bit hungry… knowing I followed my plan to a T.  yahoo.. still have my focus on the statement below.  I am resting today so that I am READY to ROCK the iron and diet this week.

In Order to BE IT, You MUST first SEE IT! Your ATTITUDE must be that of someone who will ONLY see LIGHT even in utter Darkness. With My MIND I LIGHT my FUTURE on FIRE. My Body, My Goals and my Dreams are under MY control and it’s NOT the Other way Around. I’m Running This Thing. Bring the Darkness and I’ll Consume it…Harder, Tighter, Leaner!

Day End:  GREEN Compliant Day

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Sat  Nov 28th~

Foundation Words:    LEANER+ LimitLESS+ SIMPLICITY

NOTES : I woke up feeling leaner so decided to step on the scale.  It did NOT show me what I was wanting to see…  argh.. I as discouraged… then read this little ditty this morning…  So thought I’d post it in my blog as well.

In Order to BE IT, You MUST first SEE IT! Your ATTITUDE must be that of someone who will ONLY see LIGHT even in utter Darkness. With My MIND I LIGHT my FUTURE on FIRE. My Body, My Goals and my Dreams are under MY control and it’s NOT the Other way Around. I’m Running This Thing. Bring the Darkness and I’ll Consume it…Harder, Tighter, Leaner!

Ok… so my Visualization is 163 or below.  My visualization is a clean day.  My visualization is to crank up my cardio today.
TIGHTER
LEANER
163
NADINE
TIGHTER
163
LEANER
MY CONTROL
MY DREAM
MY REALITY
163 or below
FEMININE
MUSCULAR
LEAN

ok…  heading to the gym soon to do my bi/tri/ + more cardio…

Day End:  GREEN Compliant Day

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Fri  Nov 27th~

Foundation Words:    DELIGHTFUL+ LimitLESS+ DELICIOUS

NOTES : So I had rev grip chins in my lineup today.. and HOLY SMOKES..  it is TRUE what they say… don’t use it.. you lose it… yup I agree.  Maybe it was just all the turkey I ate yesterday????   however, it took LOTS to get my carcas up and over that bloomin bar….  omg..  THIS is another reason to drop bodyfat..

Day End:  GREEN Compliant Day

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Wed  Nov 25th~

Foundation Words:    DELIGHTFUL+ LimitLESS+ DELICIOUS

NOTES : Some moments I feel like I am staring that bloody old wolf in the face.. the wolf of old behavior.  At this moment I CHOOSE to UNLEASH MY BEAST.. the Beast within that WANTS MORE.. that GOES FOR MORE.. that is Unwilling to accept Mediocrity..  Comeon Beasty.. Let’s KICK SOME MAJOR BUTT TODAY..

Food is ON… shooting for 163 this week.. came in at 164.8 today.. gotta crank up more heat…   I can do this

Well I will say I kicked my own arse in the gym today.  was supposed to hit 6 reps on one ex and failed on the 6th rep both times.  OUCH…  next exercise I was shaking so ended up having my post workout shake THEN.. so that I could keep going.  I am a bit exhausted right now.  Have a class tonight, then early bed time for this critter.  Feels good.. and needs some rest.

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Tues  Nov 24th~

Foundation Words:    DELIGHTFUL+ MIRACLES+ DELICIOUS

NOTES : While it may LOOK WARM and SUNNY outside, it is actually pretty downright COLD.  I have been sitting here for the past few hours creating my new Nadine’s Nuggets called TOOLS for HOLIDAY Eating.  This is only a partial listing.  If you would like to receive the news letters, go to the website and sign up for them.  If you would like the full article I wrote on those tools, you must send me an email requesting that… again that contact is on the website.

I believe I am training Shoulders today, so will shift gears, go over my planned workout then VISUALISE my entire workout before I leave the house.  Attempting to set new goals.

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Mon  Nov 23rd~

Foundation Words:    MAGIC+ MIRACLES+ MAYHEM.. YOOHO

NOTES : Weight is holding at 165.. I want to see 163 so am clamping down and following my plan.  I can do this.  will also crank up my cardio this week to create more of a deficit.

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Sun  Nov 22nd~

Foundation Words:    INQUSITIVE+ JOYFUL+ CLEAR

NOTES : Super old behavior landed last night.  The NATIONALs were going on in FL and I used that as my ‘doorway’ into eating nuts.  What started as Conscious rapidly became UNCONSCIOUS.  I was numbing out as I compared my own physique with what showed up for that National Level show.  I find I am quick to judge.  Things like, WHY on earth did that person step on THAT stage????  They did not appear to be ready at ALL.  More nuts.  It was like the more I looked at others, the more I chomped on nuts.

Where to go from here????  The only person I can control or guide is ME.  The only person responsible for putting foods not on my plan into my mouth is ME.   The only person that can turn this around is ME.  If I look at this like viewing two wolfs.. the good wolf with good habits, and the bad wolf with very old habits… WHICH ONE WILL I FEED.  At this moment right NOW, I am choosing to feed the wolf with good habits.  I am brushing myself off, wiping the dust off my trousers and climbing out of this indention in the ground.  it is not a crator.. it is simply an indentation.

I am a WARRIOR..   I am STRONG..    I have DESIRE and WILL and WANT.

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Sat  Nov 21st~

Foundation Words:    BEAUTY+ MAJESTIC+ GRACEOUS

NOTES : I am SOOOO syched that I have been able to lift more weight this week.  my L arm is slowly catching up to the R.  Saw the chiro again this week.  He has approved me for another two week run.. YAHOO.. that is amazing progress.  I am very proud of EACH lift this week.  I have been able to ADD WEIGHT to every single lift this week.  Food is doing well.  My heart is in the right place.  My Mind is in the right place.  I am on TRACK.

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Thurs  Nov 19th~

Foundation Words:    CENTERED+ MAJESTIC+ INQUISITIVE

NOTES : I am surrounded by comments regarding Thanksgiving, Xmas, pigging out, obsession.  WOW.. What a great time for me to Practice Moderation.  To Practice looking at Old behaviors and Old patterns around eating with others.  Can I eat consciously?  Can I choose foods that are healthy and allow me to feel vibrant all day long?

I am learning, that one small bite or portion of ‘crap’ simply does not keep me on the path to Health and Well-Being.  Rather it sends me into weeks of derailed eating,  binging and obsession over what I DID.  I choose to fuel my body with nutrient foods rather than numb out on old behavior.  I am a Warrior!!  I make this my Sword and Shield.  I am Strong and Worthy.

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Thurs  Nov 19th~

Foundation Words:    CENTERED+ MAJESTIC+ INQUISITIVE

NOTES : I am surrounded by comments regarding Thanksgiving, Xmas, pigging out, obsession.  WOW.. What a great time for me to Practice Moderation.  To Practice looking at Old behaviors and Old patterns around eating with others.  Can I eat consciously?  Can I choose foods that are healthy and allow me to feel vibrant all day long?

I am learning, that one small bite or portion of ‘crap’ simply does not keep me on the path to Health and Well-Being.  Rather it sends me into weeks of derailed eating,  binging and obsession over what I DID.  I choose to fuel my body with nutrient foods rather than numb out on old behavior.  I am a Warrior!!  I make this my Sword and Shield.  I am Strong and Worthy.

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Wed Nov 18th~

Foundation Words:    BEAUTY+ FEMININE+ GROWTH

NOTES : I ROCKED my leg workout yesterday.  I was sore as all get out, but today feel amazing.  Headed to the gym now to crank out my chest workout.  I can FEEL my muscles GROWING.. Yahooooooo.  GOOD workout today.  Am able to push the same with L and R arms.  Weight is still below where I left off before, however it IS shifting. I still notice weakness in my L tricep.  It will come along.  I know that.

Getting ready to close out a successful day.  I am super sore from my leg workout.  But totally busted some weight yesterday.  Have no idea what is on deck for tomorrow, all I know is I get to wake up EARLY to teach an Abs/Glute class..  yhoooohoohaohohoo

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Thurs Nov 12th~

Foundation Words:     FLOW+ FLEXIBILITY+ GROWTH

NOTES : new workouts are most definately affecting my physqiue…  way kewl.  Super sore today from my leg workout.  part of me says yahoo.. the other part is screamin….  holycrikie.   Have been without a computer, however training has been STRONG and FOCUSED.   Food is going well.  I am working on not feeding an addiction or addictive behaviors.. that is a big step for me.  more later.

HOLY SMOKES… I just uploaded my New Visualization Pics.. my head shot on the physique I want..  WOW….  KEWL….  Bring it ON…

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Wed Nov 4th~

Foundation Words:     STRENGTH+ EXCITEMENT+ GRACE

NOTES : I am really enjoying the shifts happening in  my body, mind and spirit as I am able to train again. I really MISSED being in the gym.  It is such an important part of how I take time out for ME, gifting to me,  allow me to heal.  My C7 is doing better.  there are still some moves I feel it on, however from the bigger picture, it was the right thing to do to back out of the November show, heal my body, and then come back in strong.  I am Excited as I allow my Inner Strength to come forth and apply it to my Physical Strength.  As I have learned in my life…  EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON.  I had an AWESOME workout today. It kicked my butt.  yahoo.. I am growing

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Sun Nov 1st~

Foundation Words:     FOCUS+ PLAY+ CURIOSITY

NOTES : I am writing this at the conclusion of my ab workout today which literally KICKED MY BUTT, or abs as the case might be.  I have never had a workout like this one.  I have a feeling my weakest bodypart will now become my strength.  At one point I wanted to puke.. and a few times I wanted to cry… this one took GOING DEEP.  However, I MADE IT  yahooo…  I get to rest for the remainder of the day.

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Fri  Oct 30th~ Today is my day of BIRTH and a fresh New Start

Foundation Words:     BEAUTY+ WELL-BEING+ ENTHUSIASUM

NOTES : I am beginning a fresh new start.  New Nutrition,  New Workouts, New Cardio... shift IS!!!!  And I am Embracing it.  Today is also my birthday so I will celebrate with friends and do my scheduled cardio.  yahoo  Pancakes and tea friends.

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Thurs Oct 29th~ Healing and Making new  CHOICES

Foundation Words:     CURIOSITY+ CLARITY+ ENTHUSIASUM

NOTES : My body is starting to heal from the C7 pinched nerve.  I am finally able to push the same amount of weight with both arms.  so both chest and tricep moves are starting to happen again.  I still have some scapula pain with certain back moves.  It feels good to be working out again and moving my body.  I am still lifting at the old warm-up weight.. I AM LIFTING.. and that is GOOD.

I  Stand IN TRUST and POSSIBILITY. It is now time to release the layer of padding that occurred during these past 7-8 weeks.  I am rolling again. yahoo.  ~N